Thursday, January 1
eight-hundred-and-ten
probably my last post here
so
goodbye
http://beneathesamesky.livejournal.com/
CHERLYN; let the rain kiss you.
11:58:00 PM
Wednesday, December 31
someday when i finally know how to love, i will love you again.
okay this is the third post i have for the new year
but im not posting up the other 2
too private [:
well anyways 08s coming to an end and 09s here
cant say that this had been a good year but yeah
thanks to certain people i managed to survive through [:
a few dedications
firstly to my dearest mum (i know she wouldnt see it but still... )
hey mum, hmm
thanks. million of thanks for still loving us as much
this hadnt been a good year for you as well but i am really glad now to see you happier. youll pull it through fine, im sure. and i apologise for all the worries, sleepless nights and tears ive caused you. [: love you always
abi and kel
ahh two of my closest friend in tds [:
i wonder if its cause we are all in adm that brought us closer or what, but im really glad to have you girls around in school. im less involved in school stuff, often seems to missing out alot. dont know much people around school as well, but thanks to the both of you im able to look forward to coming to school everyday. [: and also getting to widen my social circle too. if not given who i am i might be some loner freak in tds. haha. idk if you girls see me as a good friend, but both of you are to me though there are still many things unshared and much to know about each other. the school year is coming to an end soon, 3 more blocks to go, and we will soon go our separate ways (well sort of....) but still still still i wish to remain as good friends with the both of you. (okay why am i speaking as if its so hard to see each other when design is so small. hahaha) love the both of you! (kel theres no need to feel pressurised alrights! and im reposting the whole thing on me livejournal so that youll see it as well :D )
classmates
hello dears. people like nini, liting, gabby, xy, bell, lyn etc etc are so much joy to be with. theres always laughter, whenever im feeling just that little bit down, these people nvr nvr nvr fail to bring joy. ill always always rmb the xuelinlin-ing from them. haha [: yeah splited and in different classes but still still still lets meet up for more lunches (bitching) and suntanning! always miss those times. hahaha.thanks people and love yall to bits!
looyee, jasmine, juvenal
still my lovable babes :D
realised that since the start of the year weve been missing out alot on each others life. been busying studying, making new friends, preparing for school etc etc etc. those dinner dates are simply not enough for us to catch up.. dont you think so? [: i still miss our sec school life pretty much, with so much lesser to worry about, so much more time to have fun and laugh together. the lunches after school, deciding what to eat cause were so sick of the food in compasspoint, going to juvs hse for the silly videos, the busrides with looma, those monsterous actions/games, mugging tgt, phonecalls, little talks, everything [: yeah i might still be clinging on to the past, but i dont want to let go of those happy moments, not yet. weve all grown and much more to cope with, but still hopefully we wouldnt be completely out of each others lives as time goes by. still love you girls as much, missing yall plenty. meet up soon, and more yeaps? muacks! hahaha.
jiayi
alrights no more sorrys. but plenty of thanks. thanks for being around all the while, whether as a bf or as a goodfriend. thanks for all the words of comfort and a shoulder to cry on. im still going to rely alot on you in the future, be warned, incase you find me a bother. haha [: cause you seems to be the only one whos able to accept me as i am. no pretense nothing, just cherlyn. im able to let my guard down in front of you, able to feel tired and cry with all the things going on, being not smiling and laughing all the time in your company yet feel that its alright. thanks for the many many many support that youve given me all these years. also thanks for accepting everything about me, from my stupidness to my selfishness. [: thanks for forgiving me for all my mistakes. still love you, though in a different way now. dont worry about losing contact with me cause ill still haunt you! (im trying to say that youre really important to me and i hate the thought of nvr being able to talk to you again. forgive my selfishness.) haha [:
4E2 classmates
aye. chalet is just over. how you guys have fun. thanks people for turning up, and forgive me if theres anything that i didnt do well with the planning. still still thanks everyone for the fun and laughters. nothing would have been possible with anyone of you missing. im sure many of you still love this class as much as i do, still hold each memory of the class close to you. thanks everyone of you, whether or not youve played a significant part in my life. [:
supper clique
GUYS! in case you haven realised, we haven been meeting up as often! haha theres always fun during the supper with all the crapping going on. kpt being our 'HQ' and the playground a must go place. jassy and sam always trying to see who can swing the highest.... hahaha. theres always too little time when we finally started on updating each other. [: anyways thanks guys for listening to me grumble and complain the other time. might have shocked some of yall but yeah thanks for standing by me all the time i talk [: love you guys :D
[:
love the rain, still love the rain. aye actually typed a whole chunk of stuff but they dont apply now... hmm. anyway thanks thanks thanks for listening to me talk rubbish (and peihe-ing me) all the time. oh and the occasionally serious discussions we have. its kind of amazing how fast we became friends. and you know that ill listen to you talk, just like how you did. [[: continue loving the rain okay! someday, someday i swear i will freeze time :D
i think... ive reached the end of my list
sigh let me emo for a moment yeah
you may choose to ignore this part
for the past one year ive been living in selfdenial and the illusion that id given myself that im well, that id been strong enough to recover from the many things that had happened all at once, too fast.
how wrong i was, i had lived in the darkness for too long that im used to it and started to love it more with each passing day. ive even convinced myself that i belonged to the dark, the sun is simply too piercing, the sound of joy is too much to take. i know that its not right and its unhealthy. i cant say for sure that ill walk out of it soon, or am willing to.
but its a promise to myself, that i will try. i will try no matter how hard it might be, how unwilling i might be to walk out of the shadows. i want to be happy too, being truely happy from the bottom of my heart. i want to smile because i wanted to, not because i had to. so i will try, try my best in the new year. [:
trying trying trying
ill be trying and giving in my best now
no more selfpity no more feeling sorry for myself
ill be earning what i want by myself and not taking it away from people and making them miserable as well
[:
happy new year everyone.
have a good year ahead.
CHERLYN; let the rain kiss you.
11:53:00 PM
hello i am back.
sigh chalet is fun
well i had fun idk about the rest
hopefully yall are fine with my organising
=/
the place is huge
too big infact haha
only a few turn up on day one with the rest having school etc
the sea view is gorgeous :D
so day one was spent cleaning up eating and getting bbq stuff
ppl started coming in the next day
glad to see those who i haven seen in a long while [:
bbq was great
gift exchange was fun
and the rest who stayed totally stayed up trying to catch the sunrise
the night was funny with all the 'youre drunk!'s
ahh didnt see the sun
only saw the sky brightening ha
but the view is still beautiful :D
the sea with the sky :DDD
finally home
am not looking forward to the new year,
seriously
i dont want it to come
sighhhh
CHERLYN; let the rain kiss you.
8:20:00 PM
Monday, December 29
this is not working out
i want to
runoutofthehousekilleverysinglepersononearthgraballtheyummiesthatilike
andbringthemalltoadarkcornerandfeastonthemuntilidieofovereating
i dont like you
i never do and i never will
so get someone to grab a fistful of your head and throw you towards the wall
if it doesnt kill you at least it will hurt you quite badly and perhaps im lucky and you get some really serious head injury and forget who you are
or you might want to pop some pills so that youll die a prettier death
but what is the purpose anyway because you are never pleasant to look at from the beginning, so i think some acid on the face might do you some good
non of the suggestions sounds good?
or maybe you need some pain, those are too light on you
why not i tie you up pour some sugar and honey on you and dip you into a tankful of ants? painful enough? no? why not i let out some rats and roaches as well.. hmm perhaps after they are done with you after a couple of days i will help to peel away whatever skin that remains on you and leave you to dry in an open corn field? sounds good? haha. and finally after you are dried ill remove all the flesh on you and dice them up and pack them and sell it to the pet shops :D yummy dried human flesh for the doggies. ooo and the bones what will i do with them... oh assemble them tgt and frame it and send it to any random school. wow brilliant plan.
sick. cherlyn you are really sick
omg stay away from me
those thoughts actually make you smile?
urgh
you are mad!
you are out of your mind!
stay away!
omg
byebye
CHERLYN; let the rain kiss you.
2:16:00 AM
sigh
its frustrating
damn the mood swings
what. is. wrong. with. you. cherlyn
argh
yeah so no surprise that i got nth done today
sighs
i should go shower and start packing my stuff for chalet already
thinking if i should bring lappy along
should i should i not?
lets pack already then see how
byebyebyebyebyebyebyebyebyebyebyebyebyebyebye
siao
CHERLYN; let the rain kiss you.
12:00:00 AM
Sunday, December 28
now i am depressed.
to realised that no matter how hard i try,
i can never be as good or anywhere near good.
i can never please myself, how do i please the rest?
sighhs
CHERLYN; let the rain kiss you.
3:22:00 PM
i HATE sundays
rar its irritating
idk why but i just dont like it
and the weather today is DISGUSTING
where is the rain!
yuck but it better be like this tmr and the rest of the week
grr
whats wrong with me
everylittle thing seems to irritate me recently
i dont
want to go out but i have to idk why
want to talk to him but i need the money urgently with the chalet coming up
hungry and I FEEL LIKE SCREAMING
its best to stay far away from me now
come near me and i cant be sure to let you go unscathed
shall go hunt for food now
some sugar will be good
omg SUN can you HIDE?!
WIND where are you and where are the rain CLOUDS?
RAIN RAIN RAIN RAIN RAIN please
yes i am really desperate for you to RAIN
so please do? ]:
omg someone save me please
whatever i am feeling i seriously truly really dont like it
]]]]]]:
CHERLYN; let the rain kiss you.
2:50:00 PM
give me a wet sunday
please?
oh and nice weather next week
not too much to ask i hope?
oyasumi
CHERLYN; let the rain kiss you.
4:18:00 AM
the headache is killing me ]]:
okay i think i slept too much
stupid cherlyn you should just die
stupid messed up body clock
i should go get the tshirts tmr if i wanna get them done before school starts
ah plenty of things undone
cherlyn stop wasting time... please?
sighs
tshirts towel calendar
sigh
i. feel. like. biting. someone. really. hard. now.
omg
byebye
CHERLYN; let the rain kiss you.
1:02:00 AM
Saturday, December 27
ahhh i love my chair :D
today had been a LONG LONG LONG DAY
im dying ]:
it allllll started at 1000
kiasu cherlyn woke up early to do the elective thingy
oh and abi, if you see this, idk if you saw my sms but yours is successfully done too [:
1200 left hse headed to mum they want to borrow my lappy
cut and re-bleached my hair :DDDD
left in the evening to join gfs for dinner at the esplanade
had lots of fun
the pictures... HAHAHA
and finally home around 12
omg tired damn tired
anyways thanks girls for the dinner
been awhile since i seen any of yall
i feel so detached from the past
haha [:
and im kinda worried for chalet ]:
please please please let it go well
no conflicts arguement and may everyone turn up
damn lazy to move from my chair
OKAY 15MINS and i shall go shower
then see if im awake enough to finish reading [:
nights alllllllllll
CHERLYN; let the rain kiss you.
12:37:00 AM
Friday, December 26
HELLO
yeah and byebye
im feeling crappy now
due to the lack of sleep
RAR
see la watch some more shows la
aye i seriously need to get my day and night right before school starts
okay elective chosen
theres no cds idk why
still feeling crappy and its so early idk what to do
want sleep also cant cause im supposed to go out in an hour time
okay i shall go bathe and read
:DD
then will be off to mums
then see what i can do with my hair
(hopefully sth new though i dont mind the current one)
then off to meet dearies for dinner (if its still on... )
so so so..
JAANE [:
CHERLYN; let the rain kiss you.
10:43:00 AM
Thursday, December 25
rain.
a rainy christmas
the best gift ever
and i know of one who had enjoyed it as much as me [:
its was a pretty quiet one
and i liked it
rain on, rain on
thats the only time i can not think and be happy
a loser is not someone who FAIL to TRY. a loser is someone who TRY and FAIL.
thats something to ponder on.....
CHERLYN; let the rain kiss you.
2:14:00 AM
Wednesday, December 24
nothing can be as comforting and peaceful as the rain
im thankful for the rain
at least i am not alone [:
sighs is there anything else that can bring as much joy as the rain does?
haha
problems getting back to sleep
sigh i think its the caffeine
its freaking early now ]:
no plans for the day
guess ill finish up rins kimono and head down to mums
some shopping to be done as well
i wonder if the rain will stop tonight [:
its impossible to be upset on a rainy day :DDD
back to dreamland... ... .. of perfectionLabels: renesmee
CHERLYN; let the rain kiss you.
7:19:00 AM
its
FINALLY
RAINING
finally the sky decided to stop torturing me with the nice weather
and rained :D
yay yay yay
okay i hope the rain is here to stay...
CHERLYN; let the rain kiss you.
1:18:00 AM
Tuesday, December 23
what she felt is that of what i did the first time i lay eyes on my love
CHERLYN; let the rain kiss you.
9:53:00 PM
i supposed ive been too absorbed in my little world
that ive lost track of time, day and night
haha if you know me enough to get what i mean [;
i know its unhealthy but its the holidays
unusually quiet one that is =/
good in a way since i get all the time i want for myself
and being especially broke [:
one week gone another two more to go
next week will must be fun
last week before returning to battle field [:
sigh time goes by too fast, sometimes
well anyways 4e2 peeps
(who still bother reading my blog)
um check your email if you hadnt
and please get the rest to check too as well
just make sure everyone gets the message
and is prepared for the plans [:
thanks loads
CHERLYN; let the rain kiss you.
1:17:00 AM
Monday, December 22
life is that unfair
i will take them out of your hands if i have the chance
if only...
CHERLYN; let the rain kiss you.
1:45:00 AM
